The scars hurt. It was bleeding a lot last night but today's scars aren't bleeding that much, or maybe they don't bleed anymore because I wasn't touching them. Anyway, they hurt. Is is normal that when I cut my legs my stomach suddenly starts to hurt?
Last night he was inside my dreams. We were walking in a mall and I was like kind hugging him but he didn't cared. My parents were there, I don't know why. Anyway, when we were about to leave, he said something like that I was sweet or nice because I had great parents. And I said something like "you're the sweetest person in the world" while hugging him. He was wearing a shirt and a jacket, maybe too because I remember I felt that when I was hugging him. I do miss him. And I do feel it's my fault that no one actually cares about me. Like my best friend, I wish he cared about me. I don't know, he says he cares but "I just don't show my emotions". Yesterday I was apologizing a lot. I was saying "sorry" every 5 minutes to my best friend because I showed him my scars, because I took the blade of a sharpener and stuff.
I'm not feeling great right now, I never feel great at all. And I'm not sad.
I gonna take a shower, I want to smell like strawberries. It's funny because I have a lot of thing that smell like strawberries but I am not so in love with strawberries. I like them but I rather roses or lavenders. Or grapes, grapes smell good.
"FINE. I am a fucking emo. Now that we got over this, can we move on? Please, shut up because I love you".