I think I love Birdie. I know this because, after thinking about it, I concluded that I want her to get better. I don't want that she cuts her wrist or her legs, I don't want that she suffer. She wouldn't be the same who has a lot in common with me, but that's selfish. She's writing a book about depression: she's brave, smart and cute. I hope she won't die, I wouldn't know what to do if she tells me she's about to commit suicide. It would be a moral battle. I think it's selfish letting her stay here to suffer, but the rest would think I acted wrong letting her die.
Shit, I hope that, if she's about to die, don't ask me to say yes or no. All I could say is that I love her.