I'm crazy. I'm losing myself. I am. Oh fuck. I'm losing myself. I can't take it anymore because I don't know what's real anymore and I can't believe in anything. I'm too out of me, okay? No it's not okay, it's not good at all. I hate me and I can't believe anything. I'm having a stroke. My brain is shaking and it's scary. Anxiety and shit and it's all bad and horrible. I'm alone and everything is shit. I'm the duff.

I felt like something touched my brain, like someone put her hand in my brain and then she just touched it and squeezed it a little bit. That was all but it caused me panic. Today in school when I got there I was feeling and horrible pain in the left side of my head: my brain, inside my nose and in my left eye. I felt like someone was putting and stick of iron inside my eye.