I haven't eaten in 6 days. Okay I may e exaggerating a little bit, I did eat but in all these days all I've eaten is like 2 or 3 eggs, a piece of cake, juice, coffee candies and coke. But that's all I've eaten. And I'm not even hungry. This is making me feel bad, it makes me feel have to smoke often to control the hunger. But I need to stop eating. The less food, the better. I thought about eating 400 calories in pasta, which is quite a lot, only because I miss eating. But I did not and I will not eat it. Maybe if I starve myself for enough time he will love me. I wonder how long I'll have to wait to feel real, powerful, deep hunger. I wonder if I can stop eating until they take me to the hospital. Because when things get bad, the best thing you can do is to stop eating until they take you to the hospital, to amuse yourself, to think about something else, so you can get people being nice to you because you're dying. Nobody cares unless you're pretty or dying.